By Nikki Flermoen
I got the dreaded news in a text message. One of my dearest friends was in a hospital in California for overdosing on pills. She had texted me that she was going to sleep and never waking up, but I never thought I would get a text that she was in the hospital for a suicide attempt. It seemed unreal, like a dream, maybe even in the movies, but not right here, right now. All of these thoughts of regret, sorrow, anger, love, longing, and confusion flooded over me.
I booked a flight that night, emotions of helplessness taking over. What could I do thousands of miles away while her parents wept at her bedside? While her body fought the meds and her soul fought to live?
Instantly, I started to pray as Paul did in 1 Thessalonians 5:17, without ceasing. I prayed, pleaded, cried out, and surrendered all of it to God, it felt like every hour, as I packed my bags, got dropped off at the airport, cried on the flight, rented a car and drove two and a half hours to the hospital. Then I reached her bedside. Half the time all I could do was cry and offer up my sorrow to God. I remember telling God, “I don’t even know what to pray Lord, you’re will be done, I trust you.”
At her bedside I found out she was fighting to live; she was fighting to resist the Enemy’s grip on her. She should have been dead. The doctors couldn’t explain it. But we knew. We knew how great our God is and how he answers prayers. God intervened and kept my friend on this earth for a while longer.
Going through a terrifying experience like that was definitely a life lesson. While my emotions were reacting to my love for my friend and her family, my heart was relying on Christ and his promises and love for her and those who love her.
Facing that situation reminded me to grab onto God’s promises and pray. He is a miracle worker. In John 14:27 it says, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.”
One of my favorite verses to grasp when life gets hard is in Philippians 4:6-7, which says “Do not worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”
My friend recovered physically without a blemish; what a miracle! Her body showed no signs of an overdose. She is on the road to recovery spiritually and emotionally, and she knows God did a miracle in her and loves her dearly. This experience has made me dwell on God’s sovereignty more than I ever have. He performed a miracle right before my eyes.
Nikki Flermoen is a volunteer coordinator at EBC. She lives with her husband, Kenny, in Stillwater. They have started their family with a little Morkie named Obie (short for Obi-Juan Kenobi) and are expecting their first little one this fall.